I’m sorry I haven’t written in a while. Third year of university is pretty intense in so many ways. A lot of shit has gone down.
Right now I’m feeling pretty bad.
I miss my ex.
I can’t do my subject.
The depression and anxiety have been hitting pretty hard lately.
I am barely a functioning human. I just keep turning to alcohol to try and solve my problems. The main one being I just don’t want to exist right now.
And on top of that, I don’t think I believe in God anymore.
I just keep sleeping away the day, so that I don’t have to keep feeling what I’m feeling.
My hands feel heavy as I type, it’s so hard to do anything. I wish I could sleep forever. It’s too hard and painful to keep living, to keep existing.
Hope you’re doing better than I am right now xx